Monday, December 12th, 2005
I’ve asked and requested, but by force i wasn’t allowed and my request wasn’t given to me. I’ve heard the same things from the same subject yet heard the total opposite when not spoken to me. I’ve been told and reassured but yet the deeds i see isn’t as what i’ve been informed. I’ve been told of what i am and what i am not….i can do nothing about it. Despite the person that i am and all i try to be..i can’t seem to blend in or adapt and change myself. Why? i do not know.
I’ve been asked and questioned and yet my answers are never strong enough to make an impact. I’ve been given answers to my questions but still no results to the solution offered. My body is burning and my mind is tired. My soul is weary and my heart is heavy. Where there is light, i yearn for brightness. Where there is daytime, i yearn for the sun. Where there is bright blue sky, i yearn for a rainbow.Where there is ppl, i yearn for life itself. I yearn for passion and enthusiasm. I yearn for charisma and ambition. I yearn for dreams and hopes. I yearn for many but have no more strength to pursue any.
