Saturday, October 29th, 2005
Ahhh… my long lost abandoned "BLOG" … always been to lazy to write my thoughts down.. too much in my head sometimes.
There’s always ppl telling you to let it out…share your feelings… blah blah blah…
There’s also friends who are always so sad and depressed and feel like no one understands them..
I believe the truly emotionally unstable and potential insane ppl are those who keep everything inside … who doesn’t show any physical reaction or facial expression about how they really really feel and wat they’re really really thinking about…no i’m not talking about perversed rapist’!
Sometimes, you just don’t wanna potray yourself honestly ,not becuz you want attention or you wanna run away…But becuz it may sound immature and mostly folish. Sometimes having a lil’ nudge inside which arguably could be simply pathetic, irrational or totally unnecessary whether it’s about insecurity or low self-esteem or anger and frustration just doesn’t justify cuz u know it’s wrong to feel that way. Maybe wrong is a strong word , perhaps ‘not suppose to’, totally unnecessary. But humans are created differently…there are the strong ones, weak ones who pretend to be strong, strong ones who think they’re weak, and weaklings.
So , should society grant a person permission or justification to emotional stress and mental exhaustion on the basis of plainly being human and imperfect?
Does mankind both men and women truly believe in complete understanding, total honesty, and unlimited tolerance, or is it much easier to let the topic off by blaming it on imperfection?..
Or is it just asian families’ upbringing when parents only tell they’re children about wat more can they be then the things they already are?
I believe achieving ESS (Emotional Stability Status) is just like EPF…just when you think you’ve worked your ass off enough to feed you during your old days…some shit happens like currency deppreciation, shares down the drain, kids need money for education….
There is no pure satisfaction in life…sucessful women in life who brag about their career, their house and cars having not to rely on men eventually lie awake in bed at night crying becuz they feel lonely.
Men with peaking business deals and a loving family will end up worrying about their cash flow or having their next contract turned down or even a money-sucking 24 year old mistress.
So..by the end of the day…… let’s all learn to play the bass…. get mad at a couple of drummers…get pissed drunk with friends…complain about the governments ineffeciency and go to bed waking up the next day wondering wat the fuck we got angry for….
